What a brave article. I feel for you. FYI, what we are attracted to is strongly influenced by our earliest experiences, wether we remember them or not or wether they were large or small.

In time with the type of self awareness that you have and how vulnerable you are willing to be its possible that your initial programming could even change. Not pedophilia but I know people who have moved away from being attracted to S & M for example. Thanks for being so open about such an important and difficult topic.