Your dad’s being beaten like that is horrifying. I am so sorry.

100% that is trauma and if he was never treated then it affected him and you but most probably you have not made the connections about how you were affected.

It takes work to figure that out. Your unconscious is much bigger than your thinking brain.

I sit in a group discussion with other trauma survivors 3 times a week and have done this for the past few years.

Everyone comes in saying what you are saying but after awhile they start figuring themselves out.

Your certainty comes across like an emotional defense. All of us have emotional defenses, it part of being human.

Maybe if you get close to feeling Black peoples pain your might get close to feeling your own.

Look inside my friend. What’s driving all this denial?